Ordinarilly I am a kind, considerate person, but tonight I didn’t feel anything at all. Not the music, not the people, no feelings. There were two songs I could feel and I could dance then, but I went back to feeling nothing at all. I closed my eyes and the whole world went away, but it wasn’t any different when I opened them. No one around me seemed to be there, they didn’t show up on my radar.

And I’m old enough to take care of ourself. I don’t need to make someone help me. It’s the worst thing to do when you are me.